Tracy's Nest

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

To or not to?

I'm feeling lousy this morning. Got up, brushed my teeth and washed my face (shouldn't this be my routine every morning?). Sat on the sofa *blur blur* and stared at the TV set. After a while, went to my computer table, switched on the computer, sat down and started typing this.
I'm having panda eyes. My eyes are heavy, red and a little swollen. My head's blur blur. Why? How come? Let me 'futt ngap fung (talk rubbish)', okay?
I slept at 12.30 this morning. As I was having a great time with 'chow kung' (God of sleep?), I was awaken abruptly by the voice of Destinee - "mommy, mommy, Yau Yau oi or liu" (mommy, mommy, I want to pee). I looked at the clock beside me – it was 3.30 a.m. Brought her to her 'tamtung' (potty) which is outside the room, still in my half asleep mode. After dat, led her to bed and she immediately zzzzzz again.
FYI, I have this very bad habit, once I'm awaken I cannot easily go back to sleep. Another bad habit is, I have to take half a pill (sort of sleeping pill) to go to sleep (psst, psst, I don't know whether Pappy knows about this or not cos I did hint to him dat I've to take 'something' to go to sleep or in order to have a good night sleep). So, I tried hard to get back to sleep again. As I was in the midst of dozing off, Destinee suddenly got up and shoke me and I heard "mommy, mommy, very hungry". I grabbed the clock and stared at it – 5 a.m.! I dragged myself very reluctantly to make milk for her. After finishing her milk, I put her back to sleep again. I was WIDE AWAKE! So, I laid on the bed, staring on the ceiling and suddenly came into my mind was – blogging!
I did mention to Michelle at one time dat Pappy did complain about me blogging and going into sites of bloggers and chatting on msn too much. Not only dat, he said I was wasting my time and it was not 'earning' me anything (*duh* what does he know about blogging?) So, I restricted myself to chat, only when I'm free (chatters, when u see dat I click u, u better chat with me). Yesterday I visited Mumsgather's blog and I mentioned Pappy's complaint about my blogging. I once read in Blurblur's blog about Diva's blog being BLOGICIDE (blog committed suicide?) and this word kept flashing before me. All these came into my mind as I lay on the bed. After thinking for a while, I began to feel sleepy but suddenly jumped on my feet when the alarm in my maid's room went off – teet teet ... teet teet ... teet ... teet! Arrrrrgggghhhhhh .......... felt like banging my head on the wall! Alrite, it was 6.45 a.m.!
Okay, okay, okay, dat's it, I CAN'T GO BACK TO SLEEP! (I usually get up at 8.15 a.m.)
As I was typing this, Destinee got up and I had to stop, so, I had to continue when I reach office.
...... (in the office) okay, Pappy just went out ..... continue ......
SHOULD I CONTINUE OR STOP BLOGGING? I've so many posts yet to be put into my blog. I was once asked, "what's ur way of releasing stress?" I, without thinking, said: "Shopping, cooking/baking in the kitchen and BLOGGING/BLOG HOPPING! So, u see, I don't think I want to stop blogging but I do not wish to disappoint Pappy. What should I do? Should I sit and explain to him what's blogging all about? (I don't think he'll understand). *sob sob sob* and sigh ... sigh ... sigh ... :-(
Anyway, on the brighter and happier side, maybe I'll curi curi (steal) time to blog. :-)


At Tue Jun 06, 12:22:00 PM, Blogger Egghead said...

why have to stop... just write when you are free lor :)

At Tue Jun 06, 12:25:00 PM, Blogger blurblur said...

Don't stop blogging...i enjoy reading your blog...don't stop!!!

I had the same thoughts too (if i should stop blogging), Tracy. But hubby told me: Why stop when you enjoy writing so much? well, i guess we blogging mummies have one thing in common - we love to share our little moments with others! :)

We're like old friends already, do you bear to 'forsake' your old friends..;p

Oh, btw, i'm just like you, can't get back to sleep easily once i'm awake...haiz...

At Tue Jun 06, 12:50:00 PM, Blogger Jesslyn said...

why think of stop blogging so serious? just write when free la..i just treat blogging as online journal, write something happen around my life, and i write when i am free too!
btw, u hv not blog how to make fish ball ler?? i am still waiting!!!

At Tue Jun 06, 01:26:00 PM, Anonymous jefferene said...

Yaloh, just blog when you are free like what I do now, no commitment.

BTW, don't be too dependent on sleeping pill, it is addictive. Try those natural way to fall sleep.

At Tue Jun 06, 02:13:00 PM, Blogger mumsgather said...

Oops! I made you cannot sleep ah? I'm the same you know, usually have trouble going back to sleep once awaken by the kids. I was just trying to explain to mamabok on my blog that my hubby making that remark to me was not because he was insensitive or Asian but rather because he dislikes blogging and fails to understand it. I mean if I were to play pc game in front of him, he'd happily watch the kids for me but if I were to blog, he'd pull a long face. I won't give up blogging though, Tracy because its something I do for me and hopefully you won't too. If it makes pappy unhappy then perhaps just blog less loh.

At Tue Jun 06, 03:47:00 PM, Blogger Zara's Mama said...

Yup.. like what egghead said, blog when you are free loh.. why need to do blogcide?

My husband also complains about me.. that's why nowadays on w/ends, I don't log on.. I just read blog and blog during w/days.

At Tue Jun 06, 05:12:00 PM, Blogger chanelwong said...

you also light sleeper like me..wake up and have a hard time to sleep...Blog lar, I not time to write nice blog like yours..I enjoy reading other blogs --more interesting than mine

At Tue Jun 06, 05:56:00 PM, Blogger Tracy said...

To all, thank u so much for being so supportive. I'm really touched (nearly felt tears in my eyes) *tongue out*

Frankly speaking, I really do not wish to stop blogging. I'm using my free time to blog now wor, where to find more free time leh? I need 12 hrs more!

Thnx. I'm really happy to hear dat u enjoyed reading my blog.

At least u have ur hubby supporting u when u blog. But mine, haiyo, he only knows how to 'ngi ngi ngo ngo', he's not at all supportive.

True, true, thru blogging I know a lot of frens and we are like old frens, blahing almost about anything. I really feel consoled here.

*hi five* U too cannot get back to sleep? It's really frustrating when u're 'suffering' and the one beside u is snoring his head off hor? *feel like kicking his ass*

I've been thinking and considering over and over again and sometimes I do have minor arguments with Pappy regarding to this ... sigh ....

How to make fish paste is under the title Seafood Noodles.
Go to this:

I'm really interested in blogging and it's like I've lots to blog about, just couldn't slot in the time. I'm like dat, if I'm interested in something, I'll commit myself to the fullest.

No lar, it's not really when I thought of ur blog dat made me 'bonkers' this morning. My mind was like 'blanked out' and was like everything's in the mind ... aiyo ... I dunno. Pappy is a typical Chinaman type and u can imagine lor.

Zara's mama:
Why men just cannot understand hor? Blogging is like a hobby mar. I'm trying not to blog when he's around too. I'm using my free time and he has to 'keboh'. *grrrrrrrr*

U are a light sleeper too? *shake hands, shake hands*

I know u are a busy person and has no time to update ur blog. Can see from ur 'tunggu sampai ayam bertelur pun tak ada telur' (waiting for the hen to lay eggs oso no eggs) blog. Hahahahaha!

At Tue Jun 06, 07:31:00 PM, Anonymous michelle said...

Need a balance in life. Blog when you feel like it. Don't stop altogether.

At Wed Jun 07, 03:52:00 AM, Blogger Vien said...

Tracy, just treat your blog as your diary. After all, that's how it all started. A blog is about your personal experience in written format. Just blog when you're free or like you said wanna relieve your stress. Maybe you can invite Pappy to read your blog. My hubby reads mine and he somewhat understands what blogging is about and why I like to do it. Pls don't stop blogging if you like it so much. Otherwise, you will be miserable. *hugs*

At Wed Jun 07, 09:39:00 AM, Blogger Sabrina said...

Haiyoh....Don't make it such a big issue.Like others said, blog when u are free.Businessman are like that mar..Always think of doing things which provide benefits.Hehe... Now worries...We support you to continue blogging.
As for the sleeping pills. It is addictive. Start counting sheeps at nite or sing yourself to sleep.This might work...Or maybe ask ur maid to sing for you.Hehe

At Wed Jun 07, 09:57:00 AM, Blogger mom2ashley said...

actually i now realize that bloggin is very time consuming and sometimes the only time i can really blog hop and update my blog is at night when ashley's asleep...i have contemplated of blogiciding as well.....but perhaps not now...i'm so obsessed in making sure that i captured every single detail of ashley's milestones and don't want to do a 'half-past-eight' job for now...:)

At Thu Jun 08, 02:02:00 PM, Blogger Linda said...

Hi Tracy,
Just blog when u r free. As it won;t disturbing our life then it's ok..Man hard to understand it.. Just take it as a 'communication bridge' between u and us.
Last time hubby also dun understand why I keep blogging and blogging. But now h enjoys read my blog also. Try to ask ur hubby browse ur Tracy;s Nest whenever he is free to do it.

At Thu Jun 08, 02:16:00 PM, Anonymous Rachel said...

Haiyo...why stop? You got so many fans see, don't dissapointed us lah, blog when ever you free, like me :)

At Thu Jun 08, 03:42:00 PM, Blogger Tracy said...

True dat we really need a balance in life. U were the first to encourage me to blog, thank u so much. I just hope I'm able to continue.

Ur hubby's so understanding and supportive whereas mine's not at all supportive and interested, let alone ask him to read my blog. Anyway, his English not very good too.

Haiya, me making a big issue? NOT ALLOWED TO BLOG WOR? What would u do?

Counting sheep? No way lar. Ask my maid to sing to me. Worse. With dat hoarse voice of hers, she'll keep me awake instead (heeheehee).

So, u found dat blogging is time consuming, dat's exactly what Pappy thinks so too.

Me too. I just would like to jot down my happy and sometimes sad memories. Hope I'm still able to do so.

Hi, thanks for dropping by. At least ur hubby takes his time to browse ur blog. Mine just couldn't be bothered. "Waste of time" he will say.

I know u are my most supportive fansee. Thanks, thanks. I just hate to stop blogging. I love this hobby too much to give up. I guess I will have a nice talk and reason out with Pappy.

At Thu Jun 08, 03:44:00 PM, Blogger Tracy said...

Jefferene and Sabrina:
Thanks for ur concern. Sorry to tell u dat I'm not really taking sleeping pills, only my medicine for my nose which will only make me drowsy. If I can't go to sleep, just pop half a pill and after for a while, I'll be chatting with 'chow kung' oredi.

At Thu Jun 08, 05:44:00 PM, Blogger jazzmint said...

lerr don't stop lahh...i believe blogging n chatting can be addictive (agree with ur pappy), but at the same time it gives us some time-off. or else life oso shorter oredi lah :P

u should tell him the benefits of blogging, like u learn how to cook more good food, share things with other mommies...then ur life not so boring mah :)

At Fri Jun 09, 04:23:00 AM, Blogger Blogie-Talkie said...

wanna to share you my though thru email,, may I have your email please
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At Fri Jun 09, 01:56:00 PM, Blogger magictree said...

Hi tracy,
Just came back from my 'kampong' and dropped by to read your interesting topic. I only had problems going back to sleep recently and I attribute that to 'getting old'. Ha! Ha! Just wondering why you don't put potty in the room so Des can go by herself. My room has an attached bathroom, so the boys just go by themselves middle of night without waking me up. You are a good mummy...Des wakes up at 5 am and you make milk for her. If it is me..I'll tell them , it is too dark, go to sleep first!!!

At Fri Jun 09, 04:50:00 PM, Anonymous maria @ twinsmom said...

kekeke... I gone through this hubby-nagging-on-blogging phase last year, now a lot better, I not so attach on blogging, a lot of time I just relax and read a book.

bloghopping really need a lot of time, that is why i use the feed reader, read when i want to, blog when I am free, feel better.

At Mon Jun 12, 12:22:00 AM, Blogger shoppingmum said...

Why stop? Just blog when you're free, and if bloghopping, just read without comment if you're time limited. That's what I do.
Same as you, once wake up very hard to sleep back and I don't sleep much. That's why I look like panda now.

At Tue Jun 13, 01:26:00 AM, Blogger 1+2mom said...

Dun stop blogging, i like your blog too :) Just relax and feel free to write. Just like me, i write when i'm free. I blog hopping when i'm free. I'm the one who nagging my hubby pay to much attention to his online game ler, so he didnt boder about me to write or read blog cause most of the time i with the kids more.
I'm very lucky can get back sleep fast after awake..hehe..just once a while will hard to get back sleep but very seldome.

At Tue Jun 13, 12:57:00 PM, Blogger Tracy said...

Blogging is indeed very addictive. I've treated it as a hobby. I believe it does help me to ease my mind - just blah whatever I feel like blahing.

Good, good, I've oredi sent u a message thru email.

Getting old? Maybe 'old age' does not need lots of sleep? Hahaha.

I had tried putting the potty inside the room but she refused to sit on it. As for the attached bathroom, my girl is just to lazy to sit on the toilet bowl, she likes to sit on the potty and lean on the wall ... haiya ...

It's only sometimes dat she wants her milk in the wee hours of the morning. If I ignore her, she'll continue calling me, so, I've no choice.

U had the same experience with Twinsdad too? But u are lucky dat Twinsdad's understanding.

If I read blogs, I really would love to leave comments but now I think I've limited time (boohoohoo).

1+2 mom:
Thanks Sylvia. I just really hope dat I can continue blogging. I think I've to find time to talk with Pappy.

Wah, u are really lucky dat u can get back to sleep. How I wish I can do dat.


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